2018.6.8 UPDATE: Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hide

Hello Friends,

In many ways, my personal world is a lot like the Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hide story.  There is a side of me that knows what I should and shouldn’t do and, in most cases, has an idea of how to do the things he should do as well as avoid the things he shouldn’t.  But then there’s the other side: the side that seems hell-bent on self-destruction.  These two sides are constantly at war with each other and, many times, it is impossible to know which one is winning…


I will have new items for you this weekend.  The last mold is curing now.  As soon as I can get decent castings from it, I’ll take pictures and post them  Until then, I will be setting up the new product listing pages.  Just know that, at first, they will not have pictures attached.  That will change by Friday night or Saturday morning.


I am going to do something this summer that will effect new releases.  I’ll explain below.  Just know that, from now until August 31, I do not plan any ‘scheduled’ releases.  I am just going to ‘dribble’ things out as I get them finished.  Therefore, you need to check back here every Friday or, better still, like and follow our Face Book page so you can stay up with the latest TMD news.

That said, I can tell you that I plan to take the summer to finish older projects.  I have some items for the U.S. T-Series heavy tanks, the M3 Lee/Grant and a lot more storage items for the Panthers.  I will be working on the structural masters for the Panthers, such as fenders, exhausts, etc., but those items are going to be held until August 31.  I will release everything you could ever need for a Panther Ausf A and probably D at that time.  Until then, just keep watching.  I am pretty sure I’ll leak something out you can use or will want to add to your stash.


As of this moment, there are no out-standing orders in the shop.

 I now have 8 returned orders.  I have no idea what is going on, all I can do is keep asking you to contact me if you are missing an order.
I am going to take a “working vacation” this summer. 
It will go from now until August 31.

Folks, there is a growing unease inside me, and I fear it may be a return of ‘burn-out.’  I do not want this to happen.  I like what I do, I just need a break.  I need to see if I can ‘find’ the hobby in modeling again.  Still, I cannot afford to quit — not yet, anyway.  Therefore, I am going to try something different.  I am going to go on something I think of as a ‘working vacation’ this summer.  I will still fill all your orders in a timely manner!  It just means I mean I am not going to work so hard to keep pumping out new products for a while.  Instead, I will get up a little later, spend a little more time with BB and the shop rats, and try — hard — to build a model for Joe.  The idea is to take some pressure off myself and enjoy life for a while.

At the same time, however, I am going to keep working.  I just won’t spend as much time on the master bench.  Instead, I will see if I can’t finally get the changes to the web site figured out and made.  I am also going to clean and organize the shop.  We all know modelers run on a schedule totally opposite of soldiers: we are slow in the summer and busy in the winter.  So, it makes sense for me to do my ‘refit’ during the summer.  It’s just that summer is slow, and I can’t afford to lose too many sales by not putting out new items or I could create a whole new set of problems for myself.  So I will dribble some cool items out for you.  The rest I’ll just trust to God.  🙂


As I said a little earlier, I feel like I am burning out again.  Please don’t panic; I’m not going to quit or close TMD.  I told you in my personal note last week, I am going to keep TMD going until it dies a slow, natural death.  It’s just that I have fallen into a bit of a rut where I am telling myself I cannot do the things I want to do and that I must do things I don’t want to do.  I don’t know how it works for other people but, for me, this creates a vicious feedback-loop that builds on itself and — in my case — can quickly become self-destructive.  Well, I want to stop the cycle, so I am going to try something I’ve never done before.  I am going to take care of Joe and BB and just trust that God will handle the rest.  Personally, I have no fear because I will not be alone in this.  Not only do I have BB, but I know I have all of you out there: those of you who follow my struggles to keep TMD going.  I keep telling you that I think of each of you as a friend, and I mean that.  That is why I know I’m going to be OK and, after I take a short break this summer, I expect to come back fully re-charged and ready to sprint to what will be the triumphant finish of TMD’s story 🙂


Well, that’s all I have for now.  So, until next week, stay safe and try to build something (preferably something using TMD resin).


Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *